good bye.. =(

hey bloggers..
rite now i really got to feel how a real goodbye tastes like.. itx not like itx the first time.. but the hurtings deep... the pain seems so real... this is the worst feeling ever.. i seriously hope that this would end soon but even da one poisonous hour seems endless!!!... that face of an angle comes out to say sorry just when you want um to... but i guess that wont do any good because itx too late!.. it seriously hurts me to say goodbye it hurts even more when i ask why... but this is how it has to be... i refused to be played for a fool!! GOODBYE =(

my creative side (you wil not be believed you have decieved)

this poem is for the one who created all the drama in my life. and tried to fooled everyone else too.. and that everyone is aware of all his drama... called you wil not be believed you have deceived

a simple i know that i am

a caring girl people say that i am

but i am so not interested in a faker

you are such a story maker

all ur apologies turned into lies

but baby guess what? i never cried

because since the beginning i knew this was fake

and so were the stories that u make

you will not be believed again.. because liars are not believed

and also because you have deceived

but u put on a really good show

had everyone fooled for a min though

now its time for a pause

and to give u a round up applause

that was very entertaining but we have to go now

you can go and take a bow 

A beter me =)

i have always wanted to improve my self... sometimes for others sometimes for my self even... but i ended up no weir.. one thing i have learned is that if u truly want to change.. den change for the good... and a true change can only be made by real commitment.. sure i have made mistakes in the past everybody makes mistakes.. but never lock Ur self up in a cage of fears crying over past head aches embarrassment and failure.. but treat them as your teachers and they will become your tools of self improvement... but no matter what hapends never have regrets... i always tel my self.. take chances and never have regrets... be that kind of a girl that when your feet touch the ground in the morning the devil says OH CRAB!! shes up... never wake up with regrets...if it changes your life then let it.. god never said that life would be easy he just promised it wil be worth it...

Start all over!!!....

dear bloggers...

holidays are over!! schools are starting.. cant believe the holidays are over so soon.. and its my freshmen year...and i guess i will be here for the next three years.. well my day starts like this. taking a deep breath and walking through the corridors on the first day.. and staying out of each and everyones way... just want to spend my next years in school peacefully... following the rules... doing things the right way.. my last year has been quite a rolercoaster  ride...um i guess it had the downs more... made a new friend B guess she had the face of an angel but was quite a trouble maker.. she got us in quite a lot of troubles that year.. but this year i want it to be different.. and thank god B left the school.. other then this all my friends are in different classes so dont get to meet them allot only for an hour or two.. feeling a bit sad about this.. well this is a new year and this year i am going to avoid the mistakes i did last year.... now all thats left is to make it happen.. =)

when rite is rong

what makes me want to choose this special person.. why did i pick him among all the guys..why do i get butterfly's when i am next to him.. why do i forget things when he is close.. WHY DOES MY LIFE FEEL PERFECT.. what is this magic that makes me want to smile when ever i think of him. even in sad times...is it attraction or as people call it love.. love is the best emotion ever created by god.. but a friend of mine M says beginnings are great but endings are bad.. i tend to agree with this... i never took such a huge risk in my life.. and rite now dying with guilt.. other then that i am getting emotionally attached to this person day by day.. this feels so rite this feels so wrong.. i want to be good.. but this thing is breaking down me...

rain..!

hello bloggers.... its been a busy week for me so i cudnt rite ... wel its raining v hard outside.... and its gona rain this whole mounth as the forcast tells... thats a good thing because it rains v less in this country... m so loving this awesome weather.. i dont know why but this weather gives a very nice fealing to everyone... everything is so calm... this rain always makes me wana wonder the beauty of this earth ... how lucky are we to live on this beautiful planet.... some people hate the rain.. wel cant blame um.. i love and hate the rain due to many reasons which are..
I love the rain.

I hate the lightening.

I love the coolness during and after the rain.

I hate flooding.

I love the fresh smell after the rain.

I hate the mosquitoes that grow after a rain.

I love rainwater to rinse my hair in.

I hated when my roof had a leak and it dripped into the house.

I love the sound of thunder during the rain.

I hate tornadoes when the rain storms are bad.

I love to see a rainbow when it is still raining.

life =)

i was just wondering today. what is the meaning of life.. in all my friends openion its love.. in my parents openion its education.. but mine.. i dont know... ppl say The hunger for love is much more difficult to remove than the hunger for bread. is it true or is it just poetic bulshit .. as u grow up you experiance new things.. these experiances make u who u are... but sometimes experiances are not good.. you change for the bad.. and later you cant change ur self.. sometimes too much of anything can make you sick.. never let anything get to u too much.. sometimes i think love is life.. sometimes i think its not.. too much love is not good then you emd up like a love sick crack head.. but love is important in life.. and similar is education.. but sometimes people study through out their life and endup with nuthing.. sometimes they get more then they achieved.. its all upon ur luck.. laer when you get a broken heart or fail in an exam.. you usually get the fealing that their is nuthing to live for now.. but deep down you find the hope and courage to survive.. after all their are millions of miles left to go.. y stop now.. life is full of surprises.. whether you achieve ur goals or not.. dats one rolarcoaster of a ride uh?.. wel if this is what i kol life then i love this fabulous. sweet, horible, crazy. fun . sad but grand lif.. =)

had a blast!!!

yesterday my friend M made a plan to go some where out today... FORTUNATELY she herself didn't come.. only two of my friend came and i took my sis and cousin along with me and then we decided to go to an amusement park.. which was not that far away from my house... well i guess that was a good thing that M didn't come because .. one thing went wrong my idiotic friend D went home without us... and me nd my friend S along with my sis and cuzn had to walk home it was fun though... but if my friend M would have been their she would have made a big issue out of everything.. thank god she didn't come ha-ha... well i still missed her idiotic 'harkatain' still i had a fabulous time.. thnx to ma bff S love yew girl... <3

down in da dumps

just one of those days when u feel down in the dumps.... everything seems boring.. i dont kno y m not even in the mood for a hang out with friends.. everything seems very boring and dull ... why on earth is this hapening to me??... y do i not wana hang out with friends... y do i not feel lke craking my lame jokes.. this is so frustrating... idk y..... now i dont even want to expect anything from anyone now....in my opinion.. exception is the biggest problem... people expect from each other way too much.. and later get broken promises... and broken hearts... well i guess nothing lasts forever... so i guess we have to laugh it off someday... but i don't feel like laughing ... and i gues one things for sure... m alone.. and m on my own...